Power is being told you're not loved and not being destroyed by it.

I really don’t know how to start…But here is my story…

There was one boy. I really liked him. I thought he is right guy. We were spending time together. We understood each other. He made me fall in love with him. He was the one who started our relationship. But one day, it was just at Christmas he told me: I’m so sorry, but I have a girlfriend.
Yes, you read right. She was there all time and I didn’t know anything. They kept their relationship in the secret. (Can you image it? Having this secret for past 3 years? It’s crazy) For me it was like cold shower. Really cold shower. I was only sitting on the floor for many hours in total shock. I cried. I couldn’t do anything.
He apologized me many times. He told he never wanted to hurt me. I don’t believe him. I don’t. I can’t. He knew what he’s doing.

DO YOU KNOW HOW I FELT? I’M SURE SOME OF YOU KNOW.

I didn’t hate him. What I hated was I can’t change it. I can’t forget it. It’s part of my life, part of me.
I felt like he only played with me. Like I didn’t mean anything for him. I was broke. But do you know what was worse? I didn’t have anybody to share it. Because his girl told some shit about me and my friends left me. I was alone. I had only my mom.
I was broke for 4 months. All time I was thinking about it again and again. Many times I asked why me?! Why he did to me?! I never got the answer. It was ruining me. And one day I said stop. I stopped asking, I stopped thinking. I just let it go. And what’s what you sometimes need to do.

Now I think I am finally clean again. And I fell happy.