I am so tired.

Mentally and physically. I need to tell someone, I need help, I can not do this alone. I can not handle this alone.

I'm at my limit. And I'm so tired.

My body is numb in pain, and my mind is empty. I will not stand this for long, I know I'm suffocating, I feel.

And even if I don't do it, if I can not get help, it's going to happen anyway.

I need help, I need it, because I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm sorry but it's not my fault. It's not my fault, it's not. I just do not know what to do, because I'm so tired.

I feel like sometimes my heart is beat until it explodes. I feel like I've reached the bottom of the well.

And no more, the only other option is to lie on the bottom of it and wait. Wait to see what will happen. If I'm going to get out of it, or die in it.

I can only do this, I can only hope. Because I'm very tired.