Only ten days. Only ten days till I will have to say goodbye to my family. To my friends. Only ten days till I will be in London. Alone. Only ten days till this new adventure. Of course everbody is telling me how great it will be. And I'm sure that it will be. Somehow. But no one understands how afraid I am. How afraid I am that I will find no one. And to be lonely in this metropole. Big adventures are always exciting and wonderful but no one will tell you about your mixed feelings before starting it. Being in the preparation of a new adventure is the worst part. Because you don't know what will happen. You know nothing. And your feelings tear you apart.