It's being really hard for me to get things done, put my life together and get motivated. It is because I end up thinking "what's the use if it all ends at some point?" which is actually a really depressing way of thinking and I don't exactly know how I got to this point. Everything I've tried this summer has been useless for me except one thing, and I'm really grateful about it and I hope it gives me the strenght and the hope that I need back. That thing gave me faith, something to look up to when I feel lost and hopeless. That thing is Wicca and is a religion based on paganism and the practice of witchcraft. If you understand it, I'm glad and happy that you do. If you don't, you don't have to. I just ask for respect. It's been literally four days since I started to get into it and it's really motivating me to get out of bed everyday. I still struggle to change my mindset to a more positive one (like it used to be) and to reach my goals but I'm really hoping that this path that I choose to take will lead me to happiness. That thing that I always heard from christians about finding faith and hope in their religion, I've never thought I would experience it too, and I'm so glad that I did because now I can fully understand them. I tried to get into buddhism before but I couldn't find that thing. Wicca is helping me so much, I wouldn't have ever imagined a religion would actually help me out.

Besides that, I want to take advantage from this new article option to express myself and write blogs about any topic that I like and poetry that I might want to share.

I'm willing to find myself again and find the strenght to fight for the things that I always wanted to do in life. If you, the person reading this, have ever felt this way or is feeling it right now, you're not alone. We'll all get out of this. We'll find our ways somehow. Keep fighting everyday, my dear.